Thursday, March 21, 2013

So What's Up?

Ok.. I have been promising that I would explain my "funk" and why I haven't done very much blogging lately. First let me start by saying that I know things could always be worse! I am an optimist. I am always looking for the good in every single situation. It's not always easy.. but thats who I am.

So here goes..

Some of you may remember that we relocated here to Northern Minnesota from Arizona (almost 3 years ago now). When we came, it took me over a year to find a job! Yes, an entire year!!! You can read a little about that HERE.

Well, my job was very stressful. I worked LONG hours and with some pretty demanding and unforgiving people. I have worked in my field for almost 20 years and this was the first time I had been in this type of environment. It wasn't fun. So since the beginning of December, I have been at home again. I am looking for a new job.. but for now I'm giving it all to my family. And honestly.. I don't miss that job or those people AT ALL!!

But - at the same time all that change was happening - we had to make the decision to put down our beloved family dog of 15 years. I had no idea how much this would effect me. I knew it woud be bad, but holy cow! I was a wreck, worse than I expected. My sister drove to be with all of us and hold my hand as we said goodbye. It was horrible.




I know many of you have been there and know exactly what I'm talking about.

So, I told you I would explain the funk and that's it.. I'm out of work and my buddy is gone. But I'm ok.

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33 comments:

sunny said...

awww..so sorry to hear about your dog. Our pets play such an important role in our lives. As for the job, it's good that you're away from that toxic environment. Take some time to relax and regroup, and the right job will come along. Hugs and prayers....

Kindred Quilts said...

Losing a family pet is so difficult... they play such an important role in our lives. When they leave us, all we can do is hold onto the memories. I'm so sorry for your loss. Better to leave a toxic work environment than suffer through it... that's my belief! Hang in there...

Impera_Magna said...

Oh, Heidi! You have indeed been through the wringer, bless you!

The loss of a beloved pet is never ever easy and yes... I've been thru it as well. I wish I could give you a hug...

I'm glad you're out of a toxic work environment and hope you find a much better job! You deserve it!

In the meantime, enjoy this time with your family... the little ones grow up too fast!


(((((Heidi)))))


Patty said...

Heidi, sorry for your loss.

Needled Mom said...

Those are yucky times!! I am so sorry.

shez said...

oh Heidi my heart goes out to you,you know when one door closes another one opens,oh what a lovely buddy ,you will always have those treasured memories for ever,take care my friend.xx

Val said...

So very sorry for your doggie. I had a chinese pug 20 years ago and she got ran over. It just about killed me. I feel for you. And as far as your job, when one door closes another one will open. It is not good to be in stressful places like that. Remember HE has a plan for all of us!

Val said...

So very sorry for your doggie. I had a chinese pug 20 years ago and she got ran over. It just about killed me. I feel for you. And as far as your job, when one door closes another one will open. It is not good to be in stressful places like that. Remember HE has a plan for all of us!

debbie said...

You moved from AZ to Minnesota? wow, what culture shock! I lived at Minot AFB for 7 years so I can relate to that extreme climate. I've also had to put a beloved pet down too. Sending you big hugs all the way from Australia, and hoping your heart will heal. xx debbie

Kirsten said...

Beautiful dog. I'm so sorry for your loss. Saying good-bye to a beloved pet can be horrible, so take the time you need to grieve.

It sounds like you've made a healthy decision around your job. I hope that you can find your passion again.

K

Vicki said...

So many of us bloggers have dogs and/or cats and thus share your sorrow. These loving critters leave and it is so hard! Many hugs and warm thoughts.

StasaLynn said...

Heidi - it has been a year since my beloved Gordon passed.... it still hurts... not as much as a year ago - but it is still there.

Take much care and hug your boys!

Christina Street said...

I am so sorry to hear about your beloved pet Heidi.. Having been there a few times I know how much it hurts and having to give up on your job on top of that... Do hope you feel much better soon.. Blessings.. :)

Joy said...

Heidi, even if you left that job you still go through a mourning process,.. I left because of a toxic situation and I still struggled for a long time.. I felt no one cared enough to fix things for me. Then to have a great loss... wow girl that is a lot to handle. No doubt you will come back to yourself.. but it is a process and just take care of your self and don't beat yourself up for feeling the way you do. :)

Michelle Ridgway said...

Sorry to hear your news about your dear sweet little friend and of course you have to grieve for your beloved pet. I still miss my furry boy after 5 years. Glad you were kind to yourself and left that toxic environment... Something better is coming.
Hugs xx

Fiona said...

sorry to hear you are having a hard time.. thinking of you...
Hugz

Linda Coleman said...

Heidi
so sorry about losing your beloved pet, we lost our big lab last year and only people who have animals can really understand the bond you have with them, they are family.
Hopefully you are in a better place without the stress of your job and that what you really want comes along soon.

Karin said...

I´m so sorry to hear about your dog! It is always hard to let our beloved furry friends cross the rainbow bridge.
Its good that you have decided to quit this job - your health is more important then this toxic enviroment. I´ll send you some positive energy and I´m sure something better is coming up.

Cindy said...

Oh Heidi, I'm so sorry... a few years ago I had to put my 'Belle' to sleep and it was the most horrible thing ever. I spent hours on the phone with one of my sisters that went through the same thing. We cried together.... I work for a school district and have weathered many budjet cuts, but the worse was when I had to switch schools in order to keep my job. It was a cruddy situation. Needless to say, we are going through cuts again and I found out my position is on the cutting block. My union threw my position under the bus so to speak along with another position. When life fells like it doesn't make sense, my therapy has been quilting. I will be doing a lot of quilting over spring break....

San @ Made in Hem said...

Sure, you are okay physically but mentally it's been a pretty hard blow on you! Big hugs!!!

Maria said...

It is very hard when we loose our beloved furry friends.. sending your lots of hugs..
Yes I remember when you moved and that it took ages to get a job but I think you made the right decision to leave this job where you were not appreciated and a good one will come up for you I am sure..

Marianne said...

{{{hug}}} I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your furry friend.

wish2stitch said...

Heidi, I'm glad you have a loving sister to help you through this.Dogs do become a special family member and it is hard to see them go.

Nina K said...
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Nina K said...

Sorry to hear about your loss! It's always tough to lose a furry friend.... they truly steal our hearts, and it is hard to let them go when the time comes.
Blessings to you and your family from Alaska!

Kelli said...

I'm sorry Heidi, that you are going through this.. they are members of the family.. I have been there.. it's so hard. Hugs and prayers for you and your family. I know the right job will come along for you. xoxo

Carolina Moore said...

You lost your dog and are looking for a new job... maybe you have a future in writing country music songs? (just kidding... hope the thought brings you a smile!)
Hope things get better for you soon!

nessa said...

I am so sorry for your recent losses. When my cat (who I had since I was 19) passed away it seriously took several years for me to even talk about her without tearing up.

I know it doesn't make it any easier, but I hope that all the internet love you get through your blog helps a little!

Carla Belyea said...

When I saw your dog, it reminded me of our family dog Freckles that looked like your dog. I missed Freckles when she was gone. My aunt who raises Miniature American Eskimos gave Freckles to my sister because Freckles didn't have a pure black nose and my aunt couldn't sell her as pure bread. My aunt still raises Miniature American Eskimo dogs in Central Wisconsin.http://miniamericaneskimos.homestead.com/index.html I hope someday the void left by your pet passing away will be filled with a new puppy.

Janet Anelli said...

Heidi, I haven't seen you in the store for a while and I was wondering what the heck you have been up to. I was hoping it was something fun. I am so sorry about your job and the loss of your dog. Both are stressful and especially to come around the same time. My heart goes out to you and your family. Stop in sometime and I hope the new fabrics will brighten your day! Janet

Dorothy said...

Heidi -- so sorry about your buddy - I lost mine in January and it took 2 months before I could sew in my sewing room and still I am only up there for short times, he was the love of my life and with me constantly. You take care!
Hugs
Dorothy

Sinta Renee said...

I know what you are going through. I was faced with the same decision just before Christmas. I miss her every day. I am truly sorry for your loss. I'm sure he was the best dog in the world.

Quilter Kathy said...

So sorry to hear this news. I will be facing the same decision soon and it is just heartbreaking. Sending quilty hugs.